In a previous blog I wrote about how my partner and family do not enjoy watching me struggle with ADHD; the inconsistencies, not maintaining focus and not helping myself "tune into" trigger points.
The most important thing I didn't mention is trust. Trust is one of the most important factor of any relationship. Without trust you have nothing. Well, I've broken the trust of my loved ones. Made numerous promises and not backed them up. So now the road to re-building trust is not an easy one, for the simple fact of not maintaining focus, not giving it top priority like I should.
The biggest thing that I'm supposed to be doing to build relationships that I'm not doing is initiating conversations in order to avoid slide backs. Initiating conversations about the hurtful things I've done and haven't taken ownership of but must. I'm also supposed to be expressing my feelings instead of keeping them bottled up. I must become better in loving myself so that I will improve upon rebuilding trust by proving that I'm worthy of being trusted. All by becoming better at communicating.
